To you: The "OTHER WOMAN"

You came into my life, Uninvited and now you are a permanent part of my history....under any other circumstances our paths would NEVER have crossed. You and I are so different...

I have always wondered what I would say to you if we ever sat down and had a serious conversation...(a CIVIL conversation) I have never had that opportunity nor do I feel that I ever will anytime soon (my mom always told me if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all) even though my days are consumed with thoughts of my future, my child and figuring out my own life, for me to say that you never cross my mind would be a complete LIE.

I can't say that I can not completely understand what you are going through..because I know to an extent (minus the in love with a married guy part) how you must be feeling and why it must be so hard for you to see why what you are doing is wrong. I have read your letters to him and it breaks my heart...because I was once in your shoes.....(I loved him too you know) I despise the fact that I have to see you around and fight back the urge to lose it..you give me looks as if to say you won the battle and it makes me wonder what type of person finds joy in the demise of others? especially if they are tearing a family apart....instead of anger I feel sad for you...you are still a child and you will one day see....hopefully not the way I was forced to "SEE".

I notice how you walk..slumped over...head down..eyes to the ground...(How can something so WRONG feel so RIGHT? Right?....WRONG) No matter how you try to rationalize your relationship, or your love for him it will NEVER make it right...NEVER. Nothing good can ever come from something wrong..."Being the other woman is fun until your conscience acts up or you get caught".....(I hope you have a working conscience)


 I have nothing much that I want to say to you..yes you are in my life now, I don't want you here......but the choice was never mine to begin with...I have no regrets today..you and I are just so different, we are on different levels spiritually, career wise, socially and in everything else in life..our perceptions  of love are so different.

I want you to know this...and I hope I make myself clear..I am not chasing him...and I am not stalking you (contrary to what you tell people) I have enough to worry about to spend my time on things that are counter productive....I only have one request for you, please have the decency to stay away from me and my son, when you see me don't be brave....because even though I am working on not hating you...I am not perfect and I might snap...I JUST MIGHT..

Yes I love my husband..but the man you are with is NOT the version of him that I want in my life... you can have that "version" of him......I will not take anything less than the man I married and I will NEVER be the other woman.......

 I will always be a part of his life like it or not...just like you will always be a part of my history, whether I like it or not.