My husband cheated on me! Now what??? I have to wake up every morning to that reality and YES it is a big shot to my self esteem....I'm going to be completely honest when I say I wake up every morning FEARING what ever new curve ball life will throw at me. I fear that I won't be able to take care of my child, I fear that no one will want me because I have a child, I fear that I will never have the courage to trust again... Each day I spend 80% of my time looking over my shoulder and dodging anything that will TRIGGER A MEMORY of my life with him, because lets face it, right now...MEMORIES HURT!
TWO Choices 1. Spend my life DODGING everything, and miss out on LIVING
OR
2. Spend my life FACING everything and KEEP LIVING
I keep telling myself that there are people out there going through the same thing, or worse...and I realized there really are! If there is one thing I KNOW now about getting your heart broken because of infidelity it is...even though you walk away from the relationship, you are left with so many EMOTIONAL battle wounds...and those wounds will not heal over night. It took me over 6 months to fall in love with my husband, and it took us 3 years to build trust...if you think about it thats a lot of time....but like they say TIME FLIES WHEN YOU ARE HAVING FUN and it DRAGS when you aren't. Time is definitely dragging right now...but I am not going to give up...I have TOO MUCH riding on this, My child, my sanity, my future and all my hard work that got me to this point in life.
I'm taking choice #2...life is too short to spend most of your time looking over your shoulder....
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