Friday, November 4, 2011

Hard to FORGIVE but even harder to LOVE

The FIRST emotion that filled my body was HATE!! I hated my husband for what he did to me (deep down inside I loved him still) I hated all the women he cheated on me with...(I hated them more than I hated him) To me they were the enemy, they were the ones that broke my family apart...they were at fault!!!

WHO WAS I KIDDING? *He was the reason they were in this mess*

It took a lot of physical altercations, a lot of angry words, LOTS of LIES, but even more praying for me to get to this realize..

     " IT IS EASY TO HATE SOMEONE BUT IT TAKES EVEN MORE COURAGE TO LOVE THEM"

Having so much anger and hatred in my heart has done me no good...it has only added to my depression, its made it hard for me to see anything in a positive light and it has severed my relationship with God.

It is unusual for anyone to speak of religion, but religion and God are the reason I'm coping...

Believing in the existence of a Deity is the only way to get through....Believing that there is someone greater than me, helps me realize that if there is someone greater than I or anyone that has hurt me...then there is SOMETHING greater than THIS...it gives me hope.

The easiest thing for me to do at this point is Hate her....but instead I pray for her
The easiest thing for me to do is Hate him.....instead I pray for him

Being Negative has done me no good, hating them has done me no good....But TRYING (and believe me it is hard) to LOVE them is giving me courage and strength to carry on with my life after all:

"The best thing you can do for a girl that steals your man is to let her have him, because a truly good man can never be stolen.”


I'm working on LOVING more......I'm trying to forgive, Yes I do hurt...yes the pain is unbearable, but I'm finally learning the REAL CONCEPT of LOVE and what I am walking away from was far from it....

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  1. LANEANovember 5, 2011 at 1:58 PM

    Yes you are very VERY strong! Til this day, it's a struggle for me to incorporate Heavenly Father into my life and pray daily. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I feel like I'm not praying to anyone, or that no one is really listening. Praying for the other person takes A LOT of courage and love. I feel like l have no rom in my heart to love, but then just when I think I don't, I find people to love that are worth my time :)

    Btw, I had two friends who've read this blog. THEY LOVE IT. And because one of my friends has gone through this a year ago :/ So I hope you know how much this helps!

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