God and I

" And if there is a God; and if thou are God, wilt thou make thyself known unto me,  AND I WILL GIVE AWAY ALL MY SINS TO KNOW THEE........" (Alma 22:18)

 Such powerful, heart piercing words spoken by King Lamoni's father after hearing Aaron teach him the Gospel. His words echo in my mind over and over "I will give away ALL my sins to know thee".

I know it is weird to hear a person speak of a being who is unseen by anyone and who has become almost a myth in today's troubled world. But here's the truth...I WOULD NOT BE AT THE WONDERFUL PLACE I AM TODAY IF IT WEREN'T FOR GOD. Amidst all the craziness that has happened within the last year, I found that my life was filled with nothing but hatred towards anyone that was not on my side, depression, chaos and fear. I spent most of my time chasing waterfalls...occupying my time with things that would only bring me grief, sadness, anger and all feelings that were NEGATIVE.

SO I TURNED TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER: 

Why?

 It is only when I am diligently seeking out the lord that I feel the PEACE I so desperately need in my life. The hardest thing about turning to Heavenly Father constantly is the fact that sometimes it feels like I am just talking to myself, I am pouring out my heart to Heavenly Father and the only thing I hear is my echos...

I Loved King Lamoni's father's words so much that I decided to adopt it into my life..I would give away all my sins to know MY HEAVENLY FATHER...and by sins I meant I would stop doing things that I knew would hurt me, I would stop trying to change people and instead change myself, I would stop enabling my husband even if it hurt to see him struggle on his own..I would GIVE UP everything I was doing in my life that would give Satan a chance to catch me and keep me down.....I would give it all up just to have the chance to get to know my Heavenly Father....and I must say that was the best decision I made thus far..

  PRAYER WORKS!! 

 Every time I find myself slipping back into the old me...feeling angry, hopeless, frustrated or lonely I quickly turn to my Heavenly Father...he answers prayers, he gives me the peace I need to be able to keep it together. I have found that as you spend your time trying to draw near to God...you find yourself moving farther and farther away from the things that have potential to hurt you....."The closer you draw to God the narrower the path becomes"..today I find that I have no time for things that have the potential to obstruct my path leading me to my Heavenly Father....ANYTHING that will stop me from drawing closer to my Heavenly Father has got to go!

" Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you; seek me diligently and ye shall find me; ask, and ye shall receive; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." ( D&C 88: 63)

I know that prayer works...I have received countless answers to my prayers when I have needed them the most....I know that as you draw closer to Heavenly Father he will draw closer to you and guide you THROUGH your trials....I still have hard days that come at me, but I can't even begin to describe the PEACE I now have in my life as I diligently seek the help of my Heavenly Father.