Suitcases and Mountains

I know it has been a minute since I last blogged...but you know what they say, "No news is good news :)"

First things first:

The name change- I changed the name of my blog because I felt that the old name pointed out that I was dwelling on the "broken" side of things. This blog is supposed to HELP women or anyone to get off the sad saddle, out of the woe is me club and into the "I can do anything" attitude. So I changed the name :)

Its been  a year and a few months since my initial break down...... I have come a long way since then. 

After much spiritual, emotional and mental wrestling, I packed my bags, carried my son and what was left of our life out the door and headed for the mountains (literally). I realized that I had to "get out in order to get well again." The two of us left our painful life behind...hoping to start fresh.

It is hard to leave a painful situation for so many reasons...I found that I stayed in my situation because of fear. 

1. Fear of the unknown

2. Fear of being lonely

3. Fear of failure

4. Fear of criticism.

"They say you don't know what you doing until you stop doing it" (Li'l Wayne) 

Its true...its hard to really see how bad a situation is until you step out of it and  see the whole picture. Sometimes leaving a negative situation is the best thing..sometimes.....

Packing my bags and heading out was one of the hardest and BEST decisions I have made in a while. It was hard...but it was necessary. Today I feel a little more stress free than I did when I was still in that negative environment (don't get me wrong I still have so many things I worry about)...but can I just say that being happy and stress free does wonders for your skin :) I'm glowing so much nowadays!!!

Sometimes doing the right and necessary thing can feel like you are trying to move a mountain. I look out my window everyday and stare at the beautiful rocky mountains and think all my troubles feel as big as those mountains and getting rid of my troubles look so impossible..but I chose to trade my life on the beach for those mountains....I miss the beach, I miss the warm weather and seeing beautiful brown people, in other words I miss being "comfortable".

 Sometimes you have to make short term sacrifices so you can reach your long term goals :)

I am trying to stop chasing the wrong things.....its hard work to break a bad habit! But sometimes moving away from a place is a start in the right direction! And hopefully I can catch something right in the process :)